On Belonging

Remember the first time you witnessed someone being harmed by racist behaviour, or sexually objectified, or shamed, or having their rights violated? Do you remember the shock of being somewhere natural, only to encounter the smell of industry close by, or to see it destroyed to make way for resource extraction? Do you remember the first time you knew the word ‘war’?

Do you remember the first time you sensed you didn’t belong?

Do you remember that sense of “deep wrong”? How have you been taught to rationalize this? What stories do you carry to make these experiences less devastating? What habitual practices do you have in place to shore yourself up to tolerate these violations?

So much de-re-programming to suit the agenda of consumerism/capitalism/colonialism has left us questioning our instinctual selves - the things we know, at the core, are deeply right or deeply wrong. We are then ’rewarded’ with belonging to the same injurious system in exchange for compromising our core knowing.

Make no mistake, this compromise is a fragmentation of your soul.

The more we live, the more we compromise, the more we rationalize those compromises, the more we reinforce the destructive narrative of our unworthiness, powerlessness, brokenness.

Remember something, come closer, dear one.

All that you ‘have’ is your soul.

Give that away, and there is no alternative ‘having’ that will restore you. Along with that fragmentation, you separate your innate knowing, interrupt deep energetic and neurological pathways, change your brain map to value being ‘normal’ over being ‘whole’.

Call Yourself Home. All of the places where your essence is wandering, lost in the universe, like a small child lost in a big forest. You can do this now.

Then learn to stop breaking yourself into pieces in order to imagine you belong. If you do this, you will become an object, a belonging. This is not the same thing as Belonging.

There are healthier ways to cultivate belonging.

I promise.